Deck the Halls With Mistletoe, Let All Your Heavy Burdens Go

So each year as I get older, I've been finding myself increasingly irritated with Christmas. Honestly, I think that the biggest problem is my lack of ability to be excited about the whole thing. I used to spend weeks at a time with my friends hunting in our houses for our Christmas presents; trying to discover what they were. My mom just waves it infront of my face now. stop it mom. I wanna be surprised.
This has also been my first Christmas season away from my house. I got here on the 22nd, in the evening, and by that time Christmas was essentially over already. I realized the only time I'd even heard Christmas music was on commercials on the TV or when I was in the mall. Haha.
After the generalized family festivities on Christmas Eve, I spent the rest of the night on the roof of my old school. We watched the fog creep in around us and the lights from across the way that we could see when we first got there just kinda disappeared. We also found a blood-encrusted handprint on the wall? Awesome. Also, I have zero circulation in my body, just so you all know. And sometimes my ipod fights with me.
But all in all, what I'm trying to say is I guess that Christmas is what you make it.
So, Merry Christmas, here's to many more.
PS: I can't believe your engaged Stephanie Carlisle. Can't believe it. Can't. hahahaha I feel like we're still 16.

I made it through the year and I did not even collapse
Gotta say, "Thank God, for that"
I'm torn between what keeps me whole and what tears me in half
I'll fall apart or stay intact

With tired eyes I stumble back to bed
I need to realize my sorry life's not hanging by a thread
At least not yet

So look at me now
Its finally Christmas and I'm home
Head indoors, to get out of this weather
And I don't know how
But the closest friends I've ever known are all inside
Singing together
Singing merry Christmas, here's to many more

It always hurt to be all by myself this time of year
A cold and lonely Christmas eve
And living out my days alone
Well that had been my deepest fear
But you promised you won't leave 

I look towards the east and see a star
Jesus Christ, it's blessed my life to know just who you are
You are my hope

So look at me now
Its finally Christmas and I'm home
Head indoors, to get out of this weather
And I don't know how
But the closest friends I've ever known are all inside
Singing together
Singing merry Christmas, here's to many more 

Deck the halls with mistletoe
May all your heavy burdens go
Up the chimney in a cloud of smoke
The fire's burning bright
Strike up the band and play the tune
Cause Christmas will be here and soon
You'll hear our song in every room
This merry Christmas night 

Singing Merry Christmas, here's to many more